Where I'm Going.

I decided to write this as a follow up to yesterday's post.

As some of you may know (a very small little amount of you) I have decided to stop my education at my previous university (UBCO) and move to a smaller college that is in the region. I have quite a few reasons for this, for example

1. The most important is that I'm going into a four year business degree at this college, which has better rankings and turn out for post-education than the universities program. Shocker, right?

2. I can't continue doing an hour commute to school three or more times a week. I'm starting to worry that I know the route too well and one day I'll be over tired and convince myself that I am able to drive it while asleep. I wonder if someone would give me a medal if I could...

3. I wasn't myself when I was at my previous school, I had too many bad memories there, too many familiar faces that made me feel like utter crap when I walked by them.

4. I wanted a chance to start over in a sense. I'm not talking about running away from your unsolved problems and hoping that things will be different somewhere new, but instead accepting who you are and trying to grow within that.

I want to try to be more outgoing from the beginning, and not making rash decisions based on first impressions about potential friends. I think that this chance will be a good one for me, and I think that it will help me grow.

Here's to growing.
xx

Being Me.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm writing this. I think it's more for me to realize that I've grown as a person throughout this year and maybe it'll let me justify my decisions and actions in the past so that I can continue to grow in the future.

I'm sorry that i've been absent.

I started 2014 at Jessica's house with Andrew and Stefanie. I went back to school. I hated my life, I hated waking up, having to shower, being around the people that I used to call friends, being away from my parents, I hated trying to fall asleep and the way that my body looked, I hated that I gave up on my grades and my fitness and my independence. I relied on my parents more than I ever have before. I began Cipralex, met other girls who were taking much higher doses, and slowly tried to learn to love myself again. I went home every weekend, and dreaded going back to school when the weekend was over. I finished my first year of University, I vowed that I wouldn't go back. I started working at a restaurant and learned the in's and out's of hospitality and the restaurant industry. I began to grow, learn to be more outgoing. I learned to smile when meeting new people, to not be hesitant to ask someone how their day was going. I learned to be okay with picking up the phone and talking to someone that I had never met before. I went to North Carolina and met a parrot named Boca, spent time with my boyfriend and was able to attend his father's surprise wedding. Our relationship grew stronger after being apart for three months. I decided to go back to university despite my vow not to. I tried to throw myself into five courses while stopping my medication. It didn't work. I felt like my world was crashing around me and I didn't know how to fix it. Back on medication. With the help of my parents I decided to drop three of my courses and only stay with one that I liked and one that I needed. I turned 19, had my first clubbing experienced and simultaneously realized that clubbing isn't really my thing. I finished the first semester of my second year and relaxed at home when I could between work. I got ready for christmas, spent as much time with my family and friends as I could. I ended my year in Hawaii with my boyfriend, his mother and step-father, his sister and her boyfriend, as well as her boyfriend's parents. I fell in love with Hawaii and realized how everything sort of falls into place there and my body and heart felt content with the surroundings. I got over my fear of being separated from my parents for a lengthy time, as well as my fear of being on an island where tsunami's could hit me. I continued to grow and be more happy with myself and the life that I been blessed with. I realize that I have a very long way to go before I will feel that I am the person I am meant to be, but I have also learned that it is okay to take your time getting there. After all, we're only human, right?

My resolution for 2015 is to continue to grow and discover myself. I would like to be open to opportunity when it presents itself. Travel when the time is right. Love everyone who crosses my path, despite whatever flaws they may have. It'll take time, but I am looking forward to the journey that leads to being content with being me.

Blog Challenge: Day 13!

Your favourite musician and why.

oh man, I definitely can't narrow it down so I'll leave some band/artists below and you should check all of them out :)

the temper trap

vampire weekend

troye sivan

andrew belle

t-swizzle (taylor swift circa 1989 - SO GOOD)

city & colour

I'd have to say city & colour is more than likely my top musician just because his music has gotten me through so much shit that has happened in my life and kept me going. His sound is perfect and raw and emotional and I love it PLUS he's a genuinely nice/chill dude. I got the chance to meet him at a bar this summer while he was hanging with his friends post concert and he was so lovely.

xx

Blog Challenge: Day 12!

A photo of the town you live in.

okay, okay, please don't stalk me. 

Summerland, BC

It's tiny, but it's beautiful. 

Blog Challenge: Day 11!

What's in your make up bag?

I'm going to mega mega lazy and just tell you and link you to my previous post about my make up collection as well okay? 

Okay. 

My make up bag of essentials is...

Revlon photo ready foundation 

Covergirl coverup (the one with the blue cap idk)

Rimmel stay matte powder

Marcelle eyebrow pencil

Urban Decay Naked palette

Benefit Coralista blush

Make up forever smokey eye mascara

Baby lips balm (the blue one)

wooo exciting! 

Make up post here: http://thelifeofhales.blogspot.ca/2014/09/my-favourite-things-julie-andrews.html

Yay for being lazy! 

xx

Blog Challenge: Day 10!

A photo of your favourite place to eat.

oh dear. 

Okay, so I'll admit that I've only ever eaten here once for a wedding reception party but it was hands down the most amazing and tasty steak, potatoes, broccoli, asparagus, and calamari. 

I mean, I don't even like calamari. 

YUM, although it's not exactly your typical meal joint seeing as a steak by itself is upwards of 50 dollars. 

xx

Blog Challenge: Day 8 and Day 9!

sorry i'm such a slack, I put off blogging to get drunk. whoops. 

8. A song and photo to match your mood

THIS IS THE HARDEST THING EVER. I'm honestly in the most average mood and I'm not the type to listen to average music so I'm stumped. 

*searches itunes song list*

*finds christmas songs*

*gets excited about christmas*

okay, okay. SO. Andrew Belle - Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas. 

I am in LOVE with his version, something about it is so calming and beautiful to me. 

I love guinea pigs..

9. A photo of the item you last purchased.

I don't think that I can squeeze in ALL the items of my grocery trip today so I'll just put in my favourite. 

YASSSSS